I posted something on Facebook on October 23 that I would like to share with everyone before I update everyone on what's going on in my crazy life. This one is short and sweet for ya.
So I paused from working on setting things up in my garage for a garage sale this weekend and saw this on Twitter:
“To those that suffer from #depression if after many bad days, you suddenly have a good day, do you feel like you aren't allowed to say you're not doing well for fear of people thinking you're faking? Does that make sense? #KeepTalkingMH #bipolar #anxiety #mentalhealth “ (See pic below for source)
And I started typing this response:
Makes perfect sense. 😕 I always fear people thinking I’m faking it because I always try to smile for them; no matter how much I hurt inside. #MentalHealthAwareness
As I typed, the tears started. And as the tears started, I caught the lyrics of the song playing at that very moment:
“Through every smile and tear you cry Even when your heart will break When it feels like more than you can take”
The tears turned into a flood as I replayed the song from the beginning amazed that God chose that moment to remind me He IS With me and He SEES AND FEELS my heartache. I haven’t shared too much lately about what’s happening, but I’m honestly not doing that great. I’m exhausted; physically, mentally, and yes, even spiritually. I’m overwhelmed by what seems like the simplest of tasks right now. And I’m just starting to feel like I am sinking. When I say that the only thing still keeping me afloat is God’s strength, I mean that with my whole being. I am so weak, especially right now. But, HE IS STRONG. He chose this moment to remind me of that. So, even though I still feel like I’m drowning, I will cling to the only source of my strength: my God.
Forever and Always by the Afters - https://youtu.be/_7I3PwoUbZE
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